“Go and find what it is that inspires you, go and find what it is that you love, and go do that until it hurts. Don’t quit, and don’t give up. The reward is just around the corner. And in times of doubt or times of joy, listen for that still, small voice. Know that God has been there from the beginning – and he will be there until…The End.” – The Magnolia Story.

Isn’t it sweet how the social media giant reminds one of postings from years ago even when one would like to forget how one said too much in the excitement of the early years of said giant. Read: I can’t believe how many dumb things I posted back then. La-sigh. However, today wasn’t one of those days.

Said giant reminded me the above quote was posted last year when I finished reading The Magnolia Story by Chip and Joanna Gaines.

Read it again. I’ll wait. Go on now. I am the boss of you so stop arguing . . .

What is nagging you? You know, that one thing popping into your mind as you read the quote. That one thing popping into your mind when your pastor talks about listening to what God is asking of you. That one thing you’ve pushed down because of the limitations you’ve put on yourself, or you’re frightened because it takes work and a huge step of faith. Or, you might look silly. I mean, come on, “it’s not God, it’s your own thinking” (insert sarcasm).

Is that still small voice (God) getting louder? Might be time to take it seriously. Obedience and all that.

Personally, the quote popped up at the perfect time. I laugh writing that sentence. Like God’s timing isn’t always perfect!!

I’m wrist deep in editing what I wrote during NaNoWriMo in November. I sent a few chapters to a couple of friends, one of which is a published author. Okay, so I thought I was not switching point of view in scenes but obviously I had no earthly idea of what I was doing. Imagine that. Well, thanks to her I believe I can see where I went wrong. Throughout the whole book if I were to guess.

She is super encouraging and such a wonderful friend to help me see my erroneous ways. I so appreciate it. Yet, thinking of all the ways I switched point of view throughout the whole book gave a tiny sliver of doubt enough room to creep into my mind. And, that is all it takes to make me want to give up. I’m not saying this to get affirmation; just want to be honest with my journey in case yours looks similar. 

I participated in NaNoWriMo because in all of my 51 years of life, I’ve yet to complete what I’ve started. I have a quarter of an afghan stuff away in a bag surrounded by unused yarn to prove it. And, all the stories in my mind? I’d happily begin typing until about the third chapter and just give up. Who am I?!

Well, you want to know a secret? I am not giving up! I am not going to give in to all my years of self-doubt and “less than” feelings. I’m going to finish this ugly book until she is beautiful. Get behind me sliver of doubt because “ain’t nobody got time for this”!!

What is standing in your way? (Kick it to the curb and do the thing you were meant to do!!)


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